Maybe it’s just me, or maybe others feel the same, but at times the fear of success often leaves me paralyzed. I’m not too sure why, but it has been something I’ve struggled with for as long as I can remember. Maybe it’s fear that I’d be held to a higher standard, maybe it’s fear that I’ll hit a wall and lose it all, or fear that I’m not good enough. I’m not really sure what it is, but I DO know that it has stopped me doing the things I love. I’m a creative being, and throughout the years I’ve lost touch w my creative side and struggle to get it back.
Now, seeing as my relationship w God has blossomed, I understand that it is my obligation to use the gifts he’s blessed me with. Even as I’m stating this, there’s a lump in my throat, and an unshakeable feeling of doubt. Am I good enough? What if no one likes me? I’m praying that I’m able to push past these thoughts and find guidance through prayer. So I guess this wouldn’t be a “new year, new me” thing, but moreso a “new year, better me” thought process.